Hey Friend and Welcome back to my little corner of the internet,

Not today.

Today I didn't get the answer I was hoping for. Today, the dream was not made flesh.

As I watched and waited for those 2 little lines to appear my heart sank as just one line gleamed up at me. I wanted my mind to unsee it. I wanted my body to tell me it was ready, but not today.

The enemy so often wants us defeated. But I won't be defeated today.

So, I walked from the bathroom following my first baby, I prayed so diligently for, I turned on today's church service and praised and worshipped a God I know that still does miracles.

My dream for more children may be delayed on my timeline, but not on His, and His timeline is so much better than mine. My life now is living proof of that.

after the service was over Little and I went to play outside. Watching Little run and play reminds me that childlike faith is immoveable. We inherit the Kingdom of God with childlike faith (Matthew 18:3, Mark 10:15, Luke 18:17). Today, that is what I chose to have faith that I know works.

I will trust in my Jesus. Psalm 37:5

I will trust Him with all of my heart. Proverbs 3:56

I will not worry about this life He's blessed me with. Matthew 6:25

I know He meets all of my needs. Philippians 4:19

I know He has real plans for me. Jeremiah 29:11

Above all I know He never keeps His blessings from us. My Little is proof. Psalm 127:3

Friend, if you're in the waiting, please know God is with you. He never tells us not to feel the emotions. He tells us not to be ruled by them. "Be angry and sin not, do not let the sun go down on your anger." Ephesians 4:26

Process the emotion, talk it out with Him, because He truly cares for you. Allow Him to comfort you like He promised and let Him stay in control.

God is never late and never early, He is always on time.

Stay Blessed Friend,

-FASP